Dec 1, 2013 8:15pm EST
. that is, sort of. i'm on a leave of absence. i was planning to seven months ago but then the economy tanked so i stayed. i think i just got really burned out. she mirrored her eyes and audit almost imperceptibly. yes, that's what it sounds like. i shifted forward again. what is happening to me? am i having a nervous breakdown? i hadn't said that phrase out loud before, but as soon as i did come it sounded perfectly right and strangely hopeful. serious eats temporary. something i would get through, not something i had to live with. reflecting on it later i could see that it also implied catharsis, and internal act of rebellion against the status quo like my spirit was going on strike to protest at the constant mindless activity of my body. well, we couldn't call it a breakdown, that's not a medical term. what would you call it? she looked down at my file for several seconds and then back at me. you may have a depression and anxiety disorder. often people who are depressed have anxiety that you may have both. i have two disorders, i said? i didn't like the sound of this. i still don't.